Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh!
Genre: General, Implied Slash, AU
Author: Yuy Heero
Rating: PG-13/FRAO (Did I get that right? I can never remember...)
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh! *cries*

( Scattered Treasures )

Thanks for those of you who have already wished me a happy birthday! *hugs all*

-Yuy Heero

This a friendly reminder to all who know (or do not know, as the case may be) that this coming Monday is Towel Day! What is Towel Day, you ask?

( According to Wikipedia: )

'Allo! I has made a new LJ community, for the wonderful Finnish Band, Nightwish. If you guys are interested in joining, let me know so I can send you an invite, or search for:

Nightwish_band

Thanks!
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Ok, so apparently today's the Day of Silence. I found this out about an hour-ish so ago...and my friends and I went out and tried to find a booth where they have the tags, etc...but we couldn't find one.

But-- we still support you guys out there.....><;; even tho' I feel kinda bad now for not looking up the day of silence this year. I'll do it next year, I promise. (especially since next year I most likely won't be single anymore....but that's a different story that I won't get into now)

And......if all goes well, one of my old friends and I plan on moving in together...while I move out of the family house.

For my family who may see this post, please let me explain before you try and call/email me being upset:

I am nineteen years old, almost twenty. My family knows full well that I absolutely hate mooching off of them for money, food, and expenses, when they have enough to go through as it is.

I am old enough to go out and live on my own, learn responsibility, and get out there.

For paying for everything, (rent, etc...) I am seriously looking around for a job, and as for the apartment, somewhere in the Crossroads area.

My mother is already Ok with it, in fact she wants to support me in anyway-shape-or-form.

For people who do see this post, if you wish to contact me about it, please either respond to this post, or email me. Do not AIM/MSN me, and do not call me.

I cannot live with my family forever, nor can I live off of them forever. Leaving my family and going out on my own is the only way I think, that I truly will grow up and learn to be responsible.

For family members, please don't bitch/rant about this at me, because I will not listen.
-Shuichi

http://pics.livejournal.com/phoe_chan/gallery/000040h9

the pics I have uploaded as of now. I'll be uploading more later. Enjoy, minna-san!
-Shuichi

Ok....rant starts *now*

It is now that I have realized what my life has done for me so far....and it has done absolutely nothing.

I am getting nowhere with my education, even as my decision to be a music major remains unchanged, I am fully unsure of how and what to do to accomplish this properly.

My parents and family won't stop pressuring me to get a 4.0 GPA in class, and not stay at school so long, in other words, study all the time, and not have a life. Why can't they fucking leave me alone?! I am not Dev, I am not my perfect older brother who graduated high school with a IB Diploma, and who already graduted college a year or two ago with practically the same grades.

Now he has a high-paying job, and just-recently promoted as well. He keeps getting on my case about my grades, and how they are seemingly not good enough for him and the family. Therefore, he has been avoiding me, and avoiding talking to me because of this.

Why? What can I possibly do to convince my family that I am not this perfect fucking angel who bows to their every whim, and that I am my own person who wants to persue her dream of being on stage and performing music for people?

They support my ideas and decisions, no matter how strange and unappealing they may be to them.

A bit contradictory, ne?

My family's a bunch of hypocrites. Then again, may be I am as well.

So much has happened, and I just don't know what to do with it anymore. So much stress, and everything.

I keep getting the feeling that I want to do something....something big, significant, and spontaneous. And that it will change the rest of my life because of the end result.

However, I have no idea when this will happen. I have no idea what it will be, if it does happen.

For many nights, I have lain on my bed and cried, not knowing what else to do. Fully aware of that crying will not solve any issue, nor will it help the current. What can I possibly do to change this...? I may seem all happy and bouncy on the outside, like my friends and family have seen but truth be told,

I cannot deal with what is happening. My family won't listen to me, they keep talking completely through me as if I'm invisible, and they then expect me react and bow to their will. But what can I do?! I cannot do everything they want. What I want...

The only thing I want in my life right now, is the motivation and determination to move on and continue.

I know that there cannot be any shortcuts in life, and that if you attempt any of those, you will fall flat on your ass, and/or have it delievered to you on a silver platter.

What more.....school, education, music....that is my life right now.

So much. Yet so little.

I am not making enough of an impact on myself. I realize this now. I realize I have to change this.

The question is how....my path ahead is clouded. My mind does not know, nor does it comprehend.

For everybody else, I thank my wonderful friends who have remained by my side even when I have seemed rude or upset at them for any reason.

^__^; I don't know where I would be without their support. Arigatou Gozaimashta.

-Shuichi

P.S. For those of you who have cared enough to read through the whole thing, I am grateful. Any and all suggestions and opinions are welcome. You know how to find me.

.....wow, I'm really into Halloween this year...

I plan on dressing in my Shuichi costume for this year's Halloween....though I'll wear jeans and sneakers instead of the shorts and knee high boots that made me feel like a hooker...>.<;;

I'm hoping that Dani can come in her Yuki costume...that'd be awesome. My friend Liz and I plan on bringing our cameras on Tuesday. We plan on going up the stairs every half an hour, look down onto the geek pit, and take pictures of everyone acting like well, geeks in our costumes. ^__^

*sigh* well, I'm off to get food. Ja ne!
-Shuichi

*sigh* I am happy.....

I only work Monday next week! W00t! Which means I get to do the parade, and the party....

which means...party on Sunday the 30th!

Now the only thing I'm worried about is if my group and I can get rooms for the hotel for Kumoricon...apparently their all soldout....but I doubt that's true. I'm going to look into that......ja ne....

-Phoe-chan

argh.....there is way too much going on.

I have work. I just finished school. (thank god) I've got to organize my b-day party...(what a mess) I've got to get ready for Kumoricon. I also have to get ready for the parade! *bangs head against wall* and to top it off, I'm turning into an insomniac! I stay up till 3am nowadays either reading manga, is online, playing stepmania, or just can't get to sleep!

*sighs* I guess we can't have everything we want...but hey, if we did, then life would be boring as all hell. Life's a bitch, get used to it. *shrugs* have been for the past 19 years.

Also, I just realized that I schedule my b-day party for July 30th, SUNDAY. Go me. I thought I scheduled it for Saturday, but noo...Sunday. Go me....I'm sure smart when organzing stuff.

*sigh* oh well.

I might see Hikari-chan today! Yay....(the other Sara from Sakuracon...) It was her b-day yesterday (happy b-day)and we didn't hang out, but we are going to (hopefully) today. Gotto go, Ja ne!
-Phoe-chan

'Ello to all.

I just got home from work...and it was boring to all hell. Imagine about 50 people max. being there for 5 hours straight. Let's just say it gets real boring, and repetitive.

Although, on a better note...by boss said that next time we have the same shift and he's giving me a ride home, he's willing to let me test out my Jpop and Jrock Cd's over the speakers. Such as Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper songs....mind you, this was his idea, not mine. He said I could invite a couple of friends along to join the testing.

I still don't have my schedule for the week of my b-day yet!!! I'm still not sure if I can get that weekend off, I sent in the request form for it about three weeks ago. I know I'm going to get my actual b-day off, but I also requested that weekend off for the party and whatnot. I really hope I get that off.....if not...then I'm going to have to find someone to cover for me on Saturday and Thursday. Thursday for the parade, and Saturday for the party. I'm going to be busy that week, huh?

*sigh* oh well. Oh, another note....since I'm part of a group called sylumclan which is a gigantic RPG group whose characters are ALL vampires. I was Shuichi for a little while..but because my "mate" wasn't claimed (Yuki Eiri..duh..) I decided to switch characters. To whom? Well....Duo Maxwell's character was just claimed so I decided to claim his mate, Heero Yuy. Yep yep, I know RPG a former ex-assissin vampire. Ain't life great?? Rather fun though, RPG'ing someone completely different than myself. *grins* I can be evil to Duo and he won't bat an eye...*grins evilly* heh heh heh....

*coughs* right. The employees (including myself) at work decided to have fun with random things we found around Skate King and in the back room. Nearly caused me to spray soda out of my nose.... that hurt. One of our employees, Woody (that's his actual name) found a jump rope on top of one of the videogames. So he took it and started to jump rope...and or just fiddled with it and ended up getting tangled up. *smirk* Our floor guard...Lynn, he was on his skates and he took the jump rope and attempted to do the same. However....the rope got caught in his front brake, and he nearly fell. NEARLY. He didn't fall. He didn't jump rope after that though.....

Also...I think I question my boss's sanity. I can never tell when he's serious or just being sarcastic. *shrugs* doesn't really matter with him though. *sigh* well, I better go...ja!
-Phoe-chan

hehehe...I still haven't completely recovered from last night's madness. For those of you who didn't come to the session..be grateful. You would've been pulling out your hair after the first hour of the pizza session. (8-10pm) I have work today too, to top it off. Tomorrow also....but it'll be fairly easy considering the fact that I'm at Skate counter. It's the easiest job there...when you get trained, that's the first thing they train you for. I'm used to everything now though, so it really isn't a problem for me. Wow....I've worked there for nearly six months now....how time flies.

I'm gonna be 19 in 11 days!!! W00t! Yatta...only two more years till I turn 21 and till my parents can leave me alone for good! Aren't I nice...Of course, if you have parents breathing down your neck about everything but your job (since they have no clue how to do it)...it kinda escalates your stress level a bit. Which is why I tend to avoid being at home during the day. Coming home around 7pm-8pm is normal for me. *shrugs* eh, it's not so bad...I've got my annoying older brother to put up with also. *glares at him 'cause I know he's reading this*

Oh btw...originally I was going to have people come to my house after the party at Gameworks...and well, just kinda hang out for a couple of hours. Of course, now that I've told my brother this, I have no idea if I still want to bring you guys over..seeing as how my brother swore he'd embarress me to all hell. *glares at him again* *shrugs* it could be worse..it could be....you know...public humiliation instead of just being humiliated in front of your friends that you've had since early high school. *sigh* oh well......off to do more stuff...

-Phoe-chan

Work....baka...(stupid, idiot, etc...)

God....why...why the hell do we have a PIZZA party of all times on a Friday night TEEN skate? Argh.....too, way too many kids coming up and asking three whole pizzas, please!

Me: *points to birthday area* unlimited pizza and soda for five bucks. Have to eat in birthday area ONLY. Keep wristband on at all times in that area. NEXT!!!! *repeats this about 200 times* *twitch*

Well....there was a lot of left over pizza...so everyone had at least about three slices, ended up being everyone's dinner. *shrugs* whatever works, right??

*sigh* well off to bed for me! Oyasuminasai! (Good night!)
-Phoe-chan

As the title says...'teatari-shidai'! (random)

Well, my b-day plans are up and running (no, not out the door) and I now have a party reserved and ready to go and Gameworks on the 30th! Yep, to all you people whom I've sent invites to, the party is on July 30th, at Gameworks in Seattle. We're supposed to arrive there around 1:30pm. We'll have the actual party at 1:30-2:30pm in the grill/party area...then we go downstairs and play videogames till we drop for two hours! I got us two hour unlimited play gamecards from 2:30-4:30pm!

People, please do not throw up in anyway, shape, or form when you play seeing as how we won't have time to let our bodies to digest the food that is going to be given to us. Domo! (thank you)

Well, it seems as if me and a bunch of friends are going to be in a parade on the 28th of this month. It's the "Tour de Terrace" parade, up in Montlake Terrace. Sakuracon is being promoted through the parade with a float thingy...and they needed volunteers. So, I volunteered myself and asked a bunch of others to do the same...and there we go.

Me, Sarah, Dani, Ryan, (hopefully) Candace, (hopefully) and hopefully also Keith will join me in the parade. We will be doing Gravitation cosplay....duh. Cosplaying Gravitation characters in a parade? Hell ya! I just hope it won't be too cold...seeing as how skimpy Shuichi's concert outfit is. http://forgottenexpanse.com/images/gallery/48/P7300021_1.jpg_std.jpg

That's just a cosplayer doing the outfit...but it's the same one. I couldn't find a large enough shot of him in that outfit. Ah well. I will NOT be wearing a shirt that short. Hell NO. iie, Yadda (no, no way) May be once I loose my tummy fat, then yes. Otherwise no. So may be for Kumoricon. May be. Ah well

I think I got my boss into jpop and jrock. Weird, huh? He's never heard of the stuff before I mentioned it. He's a musician in his spare time, so he was interested. Of course, that prompted me into burning him a CD of Tamaki Nami, Bad Luck, Nittle Grasper, Two-mix..etc..

Heh, I'm burning him more songs now. More Bad Luck songs! He also wanted the english translated lyrics for Shining Collection. Crap! I still need to write those down before I go to work... *grins sheepishly* daijoubou...daijoubou...(it's ok, it's ok)

On another random note...my friend Kaylee (from geek pit) somehow managed to snatch "Arashi" concert tickets! *shakes fist at her* grr....since she's in Japan now, she gets to see them live.....for anyone who's interested in seeing who the heck Arashi is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Z7D7j3rdIs&search=arashi

that song is just to show off the suits...and it is pure crack of the good kind. Yay for rainbows and sparkles!!! Wheeeee! Ohoho, there goes Ohno....(lead singer) Ja ne!
-Phoe-chan (aka Shuichi)

P.S. Once you watch that video...err..let's just say that Arashi is very, very slashy. Very Shounan-ai. it's so kawaii...(cute)

Well, I'm back.....and it's been a while. I've been busy juggling work and school, so I haven't really had the time to post. Plus with my b-day coming up that I've been planning, I have that on my hands as well.

Argh...I just got back from work today...it's 11:36pm... I hate doing late night sessions on Saturday, simply because the session doesn't end until 10:30pm.

Although with my b-day party coming up, that's a bit of a perk right there. Especially since I get to see a lot of my friends again....most of which I haven't seen since Sakuracon. A little over three months.

Also, since there's only two...no, one and a half more months till Kumoricon, it's a bit of a rush to finish costumes, and get ideas together. *sigh* oh well.

On a brighter note...I saw Pirates of the Caribbean II yesterday! It was an awesome movie...and I definately wouldn't mind seeing it again. For those of you who have not seen it, GO SEE IT! It's worth watching, especially if you liked the first one. This one is just as good as the first one.

*yawns*

Well, I better head off to bed....and I'll try and post more later...ttyl!
Sayonara,
-Phoe-chan

Well, there's currently no more school for me for the next two weeks. Then I start summer quarter, and Japanese 101! W00t....I think. It'll be kinda intense since summer quarter's not even a month long. It ends on the 22nd or something of July. Right before my b-day too...so I don't have to worry about classes during my b-day.

Speaking of which, anyone who's on my friend's list here is invited to the party. Still unsure of what we're actually going to do though. (My b-day is July 26th)

I'm so glad I know so many people besides my brother who's into computers. One of the guys from the geek pit, Dan, decided to download bittorrent onto my computer. Which makes things a lot easier for me, since I can now download both manga and anime, and not have to pay a dime for them. I can also download music too....sooo....there goes all my memory and hard drive space. ^_^''.

Well, I should get going to eat food. Food good. Later.
-Phoe-chan

P.S. for anyone's who's interested, the guy who cosplayed Tohma (Keith) gave me a CD with photos from Sakuracon. There's more photos on there than what was on Sara's link. Btw, Tohma took pics of the Bad Luck concert, the one that I was the lead singer in.....*twitch* Why'd he have to go and do that? Remind me next time I see him to kick him. Later!

Alright, everything's A ok now. My brother even apologized last night for being an asshole to me about my studying habits. Those were his exact words too. *sigh*

Ya know, everything's back to normal schedule now....school's almost over, work started up again after not being there for a week due to choir concert/rehearsal schedules....arghh....

For some reason it feels like something's kinda missing. I'm at school now, having fun in the geek pit and everything, but it still feels like something's missing. *vicariously bangs head against wall* *twitch*

I'm going to be extremely bored till Summer quarter starts. School ends tomorrow officially, and I won't be doing anything for about two-three weeks except work. *sigh* I'm going to die from boredom.....or be close to it anyways.

On the other hand...since two-three people are either leaving or quitting work soon, I'm most likely going to be trained for b-day parties and floor guarding. I don't mind being trained for floor guarding, since I get paid to skate around.... but b-day parties I mind since I have to deal with the parents. It's not the kids you have to worry about, it's the parents. They tend to be a little picky, and a little pissy about food, money, and their kids' needs. I don't do b-day parties now, and I already get pissy at them for yelling at the b-day servers. Kuso..('bastard/bitch' in japanese)

Well, I better go. TTYL
-Phoe-chan

Well, spring quarter's finally over for me. All of my finals have been taken care of...I only had two though. My choir final which was our concert that we did on Friday and Saturday night. (which btw was awesome.....sugoi (awesome in japanese).
I had my history final this morning. It wasn't that bad, I think the hardest part wasn't the essay questions, but in fact the terms which we had to have dates for at least five of them. There were 15 listed. *bangs head against wall* *sigh* oh well, it could've been worse.

Why am I taking a class during summer? 'Cause I have nothing better to do in my time except for work. Grrrrr.... I'm taking Japanese 101 this summer. What really sucks though is that summer quarter is only about a month long...which means that this language class is a teeny bit accelerated with the work load wise. *sigh* oh well....but I really want to learn japanese, since it's a freakin' sugoi language. It makes so much more sense than English ever will....English is the most messed up language that has ever been created.

Ya know, have you ever felt that over a period of months things seem to be going your way, but then, it all crashes at your feet? That kinda happened to me over the past couple of weeks. Things have been rocky with my brother ('oni-chan'means older brother in japanese in case I ever do use that term) since he seems to be telling me that I haven't been studying enough when I've been studying for at least two-three hours a night. My brother and I have always had a really good relationship with each other, and we trust each other more than we'll ever trust our parents. So being a bit rocky with him was not fun......all the fun was taken out of going home.

Another thing that happened....not nearly as big...
Anime Expo...I really, really want to go. I would go. I want to go. Although.....none of my friends can go since their all busy that weekend!!!!! Why does it have to be the 4th of July weekend??? *sigh* I really want to go to meet the guests that are going to be there. CLAMP, Edward and Alphonse Elric...(character names) *sigh* damn it.....oh well.......

I'm extremely happy though for the fact that I now have a laptop. Which, ironically enough is what I'm using at the moment. Hehe, I'm still at school in the geek pit. I should probably go though, if I want to head home before work. Yeah, gotto go. TTYL!
-Phoe-chan